in need of a real friend...

looking a bit over the babylonian empire, I've came across a very interesting article about the Silk Road. As you all may know, before portuguese navigators found a route to the Orient by ocean in the 15th century AD, that route was made by ground in what was called the Silk Road. And it seems that course is as old as the 10th century BC.

Around 538 BC (if my memory is not failing) the Babylonian Empire was capture by the Persian King Cyrus, the Great. This king sent the captive hebrew back to Israel, but many of them, instead of going back to their motherland, remained in the Persian Empire and became traders in the Silk Road.
These people carried with them religions from the mid east and early judaism to the most oriental countries, india and china. Thereafter, in the 2nd century BC, budhism started to spread, and its main spreading course, was precisely the Silk Road. Many people and traders along the Silk Road actually started to learn many diferent languages and became familiar with the religions as a better mean to reach other traders and win their life. Actually the largest religions known today may have been impelled by the Silk Road traders.

It is also known that the sorrounding empires (Persia, China...) could have lived without the Silk Road market. They were trading luxury goods, but the journey was so long and dangerous, that in fact, economically, those empires didn't need the Silk Road traders to survive. It might have enriched some traders, but it wasn't needed.

I believe the Silk Road existed not only for a economically purpose but also for a religious and social purpose. I always thought that the similarity between most of the religions was something transcendental, but in fact it is not. There are much similarities between these religions, and many, now dead, smaller creeds popped out from these traders.

I really find this most interesting ^^

on my last journal vampir had some interesting insights which I will post here:

vampir wrote:

we fail to communicate i think and love is not enough one needs to hear and understand the other person and also express themselves.
we are all hurt and it takes so much time to trust someone again with an open heart but also we are unaware of ourselves and that makes things worse i think.
we live our relationships as we see on tv, we feel as they tell us to and there starts our ruin..

xeoncat replied:

Communication is the foundation of Love. Comunication > Trust > Respect and I think it is necessarily by this order. There is no point in basing any relationship on communication if just one of its elements do it, while the other falls into some kind of selfish silence. If we are unaware of ourselves, then we need someone to see us for ourselves, and for that is needed communication.
What are we all afraid of, after all?

vampir replied:

i know what we are afraid of..
we all think we are these perfect creatures without any faults or failures. as long as one keeps their silence they go on being "perfect".. the more you communicate the more you realize you have your faults and that you are normal just a face in the crowd.. humans like to be unique, like to think they are unique and like to have power
we are afraid of losing control

that's what i think

xeoncat replied:

I believe you are right and most people think that's what love is all about, about The One! The one person that is "flawless"! But it's obviously wrong. there is no such creature. And believing in love, knowing this is true, makes me feel a certain liberation from immaturity that is quite stuck all over our society.

I am very communicative to the people I love. If that determines I should never be loved, because they think I'm flawed, then I prefer to be alone for the rest of my life instead of living in a lie.

it is a good thing that very few people read this journal, for I will reveal today the very secret of relationships in a nutshell. based on the account of 3 different couples(a very scientific approach indeed). For this, I will recreate a 10 year relationship in a IRC conversation. I'll add [[]] when I'm making a comment.

1st year
<girl> hi, I've got myself a new friend.
<boy> oh yeah? who is it?
<girl> its you.
<boy> great! you're a very cool friend too.
<girl> you're like no one else I've met before.
<boy> you rock \m/ I think I love you
<girl> lol [[meaning: she loves him too]]

2nd year
<boy> look girl, I really love you from the bottom of my heart.
<girl> really?
<boy> yeah...
<girl> I'm sorry, I love you like a friend and nothing more. [[meaning: she loves him too]]
<boy> omg, what have I done?
<girl> you've done nothing. We're going too fast [[two years its really a "short" time]], It just doesn't work... but we can still be friends, right?
<boy> right...

2nd year and a month (a long month for the boy)
<boy> I'm sorry, I can't be just your friend...
<girl> why is that?
<boy> because I love you.
<girl> you just want to jump on me, learn to control your feelings [[meaning: she loves him too]]

2nd year and two months
<girl> boy, boy, where are you?

10th year (they bump into each other somewhere on the gloomy cyberspace, and I should say those were some 8 long years for our loving couple)
<woman> you shouldn't have left me just like that...
<man> really?
<woman> I love you, I always did.
<man> well, I'm sorry, I don't love you anymore and my dog just died, I have to make him a funeral...
* man has quit IRC (connection reset by tear)
* woman has quit IRC (connection rest by tear)

hope this should shed some light to all of you out there. it has been a lot of hardwork, emotionally speaking, in these last years. studying some specimens gave me a view of how interesting humans act. pride is also shown by men, but feminine pride is a lot stronger and, I should say, blind. Sometimes this resembles much like a war between two countries who want to conquer each other and no one will ever accept diplomatic terms. Following blindly our philosophy of conquest, hurting others and ourselves, even doubting if others were speaking the truth, because someone else hurted us before.
I'm tired of this, and I'm tired of seeing the same experiences everywhere I go. God please forgive them, for they don't know what they're doing.

thank you all for your support. it's most welcome