Today I feel just like God. Doing all the good to those who are near. Using my infinite benevolence and my infinite patience with those people who doesn't pay any attention to the wisdom I show to them. Comunication, Trust and Respect are the things that should govern any kind of relationship. But no, no one pays any attention.
There will be a time that you will not have me around, and you will wish that you had loved me. In fact, I'm so tired of life that I don't know if I can survive another summer like all those I've been through. Leaving all this once and for all start to look like an option. I will fight with all my strenght, as I've been fighting until now, but maybe someday my step will falter and I can't even blame myself if it should come to that end, because those who cared, didn't cared enough to cover this strange void that consumes me. doing the greater goods will only bring me disgrace, but I can't be anything else than good and if you can't trust me now, you will not be able to trust me in death...

enough of this suicidal rambling. other attempts have been made, but I survived. Guess that old voice that tells me not to do it, isn't as imaginary as I have thought first. Fabrication of my mind or not, "She" helps me in the times that all is lost. No real person ever hugged me as she hugs and no real person ever was so selfless as she is. She taught me to be selfless too to those people that I love, but I guess the world is just broken and no one can ever trust this kind of feeling. They forgot love...

yey, I won a subscribe ^^ don't know why

here's the message of the day, I wrote it somewhere in a comment to a deviation:

"without a doubt, the feminine body is one of the most beautiful expressions of Godly aesthetics." - XeonCat

I know I'm a bit obsessed about body aesthetics... but I hope it's not a growing obsession.

still about the War of the Worlds:
I replied this to vampir and I think everybody who says WOTW has a bad ending should read it:

"Humans believe in evolution, and if in fact, natural evolution goes as we think it do, It may appear some evil predator somewhere in our history, and it can be microscopic. Our race can be entirely wiped out by microorganisms, and that's where our power as dominant race of this planet ends.
well. H.G.Wells showed us in his story how nature can be interesting, from the point of view of a super advanced alien specie.
Interestingly, HGWell wrote WOTW a hundred years ago and still, it is a good warning to us."
The end of the movie is the end of the book, and its the best end that movie could have. otherwise, the whole point of the WOTW couldn't be shown. (hope you weren't expecting swarzzennegger or stallone in lead roles kicking the hell out of the aliens only armed with a knife and a tuna can )

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now onto my journal...
forget wotw, breathe slowly...

like life itself, death is not an end, but a transformation. And during life we suffer many deaths. So this is my perfect goodbye.
I am quite the same since some of you first met me, but I feel myself growing and rising. There will be a time when I can drop myself in my savior's arms, because when I grow, I still feel that horrible void.

When all the love of the world isn't enough to produce a bright light in our sky, isn't enough to bring the light from the inside of darkened people, when that happens I know it's time to say goodbye.
there are no rewards in life and "The crown of my work" is "A life all mine to loose"

Hope stills, like a blossoming tree, as I wait for another round in my eternal perfect goodbyes: a curse it is

Just saw War of the Worlds, and its just great ^^ I loved it.

The incredible power of the insignificant humans in interesting, and the prespective of the original story from H.G.Wells is really clever. nice conversion mr. spielberg

A comparison can be established to ourselves within ourselves. How incredibly powerful is our insignificant body over our magestic mind. We can produce art, we can speak, we can communicate, we can formulate the most intriguing cosmological theory, but we cannot stop the power of us-matter over us-mind.

do you think that when you feel love it's just a question of mind?
I mean, love scares the hell out of me, it always gets me in trouble and dominates me until some tradegy happens.

...this time I have to make things right... just this time please.

well, what can I say, I am back.

I wanted to delete most of my deviations, to clean this up, but deleting almost eighty of them, one by one, is not my idea of a well spended afternoon. Anyway, I'll make some kind of graphic blog from here and if anything new comes around, I'll take you to my page.

Please dont hit me on the face, I deleted all the messages on my watch. 400 Deviations, I mean 399 I couldn't watch them all.
I can say I'm a little different since last time I was here, and to tell you the truth I miss some of the lost friends: msa and margonica for example, wish I knew they were ok.
I also miss some active friends

hameed, kudos to you maybe I'm coming back to 3D real soon to kick your ass .
vampir, my little turkish friend I hope you forgive me because I have no time to see your travels and adventures
and of course, my little brothers rychas and manabuutena

cya around